A series of events at the start of 2019 left me battling with episodes of depression. I found this ironic as I felt I was expected to still function as normal. Still smile and say the Christian idioms like “God is good all the time” and “it is well” when it really didn’t feel “well” at all. The hardest thing was to still lead worship each Sunday in church when I literally felt like a shell of myself. That’s when the scripture in Psalm 118:14 became real to me, where it says “The Lord is my strength and my song, He has become my salvation”, which this song is based upon.

One Sunday I told God that He is literally going to have to sing through me, as I couldn’t see myself getting out of bed let alone make it to church to lead worship. It’s funny because during that period I could feel my worship going to a whole new level. I could feel it but I couldn’t explain it. It was definitely deeper, more genuine and more intimate. During that time I learnt to lean on God for strength, mostly because I didn’t have any other option to function. He literally became my strength and my song, when I didn’t have a song or the strength to sing.

Ashley BA

Singer/Songwriter & Musician